Priorities...

For the last 18 years I have done basically the same things. Gone to school and played basketball. I've also gone to church, spent time with friends, read lots of books and done my fair share of shopping. For the most part, the same.

Now, there is no school. There is no basketball. It takes more effort to be with my friends since they don't just live in the next room anymore, and my new roommate, is a boy. Things are no longer the same. "Well, you've been graduated since April? Why is this just hitting you now?" you ask. Well, I was in wedding mode and reality hadn't quite hit me.

I'm not a person who has ever had a terrible time with change. I mean, you really just have to deal with it you know? You sure can't stop it. And I don't really feel like that's the case now, I think it's just the fact that, for the first time, I have to decide what's important and what to spend my time/energy investing in.

As Taylor and I were discussing this last night, and I made my mental pro/con list, I still found it difficult to decide what I "like" and want to spend my time/brain power on. After I spouted off a bunch of thoughts, he said, "I think I'm a bad influence on you. You're thinking about everything WAY too much." While this may be true, I still would like to figure some of this out, so I feel like I have a little more direction in my life.

In the past, my priorities have gone like this:
1. My relationship with God.
2. Family/Taylor/Friends.
3. Basketball (I know it shouldn't have been above school, but let's face it, it was).
4. School.
5. Reading/Writing/Design.
6. Other misc. activities.

Now, it's more like this:
1. My relationship with God.
2. Taylor/Family/Friends.
3. I DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!:)

Do I LOVE to read and write? I think I've already put too much of my self esteem into my job, so that's not going on the list. Do I want to be a teacher? Do I want to be a writer? Do I want to stay home all day and bake things? Do I want to fly to the moon? Anyways, as I work through some of these things, it'd be nice to have your thoughts/prayers. It's not really a BIG deal, but I'd really like to feel like my life has a little direction here SOON. Thanks! Love you all!

OH! Also, Taylor is in the process of applying for another job, please keep him in your thoughts/prayers as well. Ciao!